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Chaotica
17 July 2008 @ 11:19 am
It feels so incredibly weird and awkward to not have homework to do... and to come home after a long day out and just be able to relax...  I think taking a year off was the best decision I've made in a very long time.

So last weekend, Peter and I went to the Night Market with Anne and Andrew and this time we actually had money.  Last year we went without a single dime and were honestly wondering what the hell we were doing there.  But this year turned out to be a lot more fun.  I bought a black and white polka-dot pashmina scarf thing and a minnie-mouse headband.  I know... how old am I?  I was looking around my room today and was seriously noticing how many polka-dot items I own... around 5 or 6.  OH!  And I also bought some new hand-dyed yarn which was pretty spiffy so I'm pretty stoked about that.

The new assistant manager at work is making me want to cut my arm off so that I'm in pain just so that I can throw the arm at her and make her share in the pain I'm experiencing.  I know, how masichistic.  But seriously.  That's how much she pisses me off.  So much that I would rather die than deal with her.  On Wednesday I actually went into the backroom for 2 hours and did nothing just so that I wouldn't have to be in the same room as her.  I really hope she doesn't last.

And on a better note.  Aside from minor annoyances, the weather is great, work is great, people are great, and I'm loving summer!  So how are all of you guys doing?
 
 
Current Location: my lovely bedroom
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: the train going choo-choo
 
 
Chaotica
14 July 2008 @ 12:09 am
I'M BACK BABY AND OH GOD AM I IN LOVE WITH EDWARD CULLEN!!!  ...

Twilight, anyone?
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Current Mood: crazy
 
 
Chaotica
Except for the fact that there is no wonderful wizard at work (though I wish there was) I'm off to work.  The lovely mall where I spend hundreds of dollars within an hour without even knowing it.  -_-"  Bu I really need to try and refrain... I haven't really been doing much saving and Australia is creeping up.  Apparently my mum's already got about a thousand saved up from her overtime... and I've got about... nothing?  Yeah... not so cool.  But it's also not cool that I'm paying for all my grad fees, and dresses, and monthly bus pass and work stuff.  And... other useless things that I buy...

ANYONE SEEN JUNO?!  I love that movie.  It's amazing.  I also watched Across the Universe last night with Peter.  That movie was... just... trippy.  Anyway, I have to go.  Can't be late to work.  A more detailed movie review when I return home tonight!
 
 
Current Mood: lethargic
Current Music: hosanna - dylan drego
 
 
Chaotica
04 December 2007 @ 08:29 pm
So, Monday's gone and Tuesday happened and ... it was actually quite fun.  Since I'm sitting in my room alone and bored out of my mind, and eating my frosted flakes cereal just the way I like it - with cold milk and nestle chocolate syrup - I thought I might as well write and get some feelings out on paper... or the internet, and maybe even catch up with a few of you guys.  So... let's begin.

Today was the ever awesome Tradex Convention.  Basically, schools from all across the province cram together in one building and go from booth to booth to booth of universities and colleges from not only all across the province, but all across the country.  And Canada's pretty big... and has a lot of post secondary institutions.  And the building wasn't very big.  So it was very, very hot. 

Anyway.  It was a lot of fun.  A lot of walking, not a lot of space, a lot of food (though not very good), not a lot of tables to sit down at, a lot of stations.  It was just really fun.  And there are pictures to prove it.  I filled my bag up... full of brochures and viewbooks.   I decided that maybe going to different cities... and even a different province altogether might actually be fun and hey, if the education is good, well then whoot!  So two places that I was impressed with (that isn't in close range to where I currently live) are Kamloops and Saskatchewan!  Early Childhood Education is something that I really really want to do.  I'm so interested in it and I can't believe it took me so long to figure it out and since Vancouver isn't really giving me a lot of options and well... other places are... then I'm willing to go.  And after just talking to my mum since she just walked in through the door... so is she. 

Moving on.  A bunch of us got out nails done at the John Casablancas booth.  And a few of my friends got their make-up done as well.  Oh the joy of school searching conventions.  Next week a bunch of universities and colleges are coming to the high school.  I think the teachers want to kill us with the pressure.  But hey, it's kind of interesting at the same time. 

I like plans, I don't like plans.  I'm a very confusing individual and I don't really make sense a lot of the time, so I guess I'm pretty nonsensical?  Anyway... I LOVE GOSSIP GIRL.  And I've pretty much spent the past two to three days catching up on the episodes so that I can watch tomorrow's new drama and not be confused in the slightest.  I'm awaiting Peter's call... and still eating cereal.  He's not off work yet and we were maybe going to go out for coffee, but I don't think that's going to happen because I don't really feel like going out at this hour or anytime after this hour and since it's against family rules for him to come over on weekdays (seriously, I hate the new rules.  I go through four years of high school without them and then in my LAST year they think that they can restrict me.  And I really don't care if they think it's for the best because of past, they're supposed to be laying off the limits with each year, not adding a whole bunch at the end when I'm SUPPOSED to get my freedom, but whatever) I don't think we'll be hanging out tonight.  But oh well.  Early night for me so... score.  =D

By the way.  I honestly feel great about saying that I'm a Crusader.  A Holy Cross Crusader.  And not only am I that, but we won the BC AAA Football Championships so hell yeah.  I just with I could have been at the actual game.  But too bad STM.  TOO BAD.  I guess HC is just that much better.  Now... I don't really enjoy bragging... but there are some moments that just need to be savoured. 

Later guys.  It's Gossip Girl time.  ;]
 
 
Current Mood: ecstatic
Current Music: the ringing in my ears.
 
 
Chaotica
26 November 2007 @ 09:18 pm
IT'S SNOWING!!

White Christmas?  I do indeed think so!  Why hello snow, I do indeed love you!

Is it snowing other places too?
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Current Location: my bedroom
Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: the bass vibrations from dylan's music
 
 
Chaotica
23 November 2007 @ 01:19 am
So... I finally finished my short story.  It's interesting.  I'm not sure how I feel about it.  Sort of mixed.  There are some parts that I really like and then some that I feel I could have done better had I been willing to put more time into it.  I still need to come up with a title for it so any suggestions would be great!  A note... we all had to start off our stories with the line 'where were you last night?' as a challenge.  I had fun doing this and I think that once a month I'm going to start challenging myself to write short stories.  It'll be neat to see what I can come up with it.  ;D  ANYWAY!  Onto the story!  I'd love to hear what you guys thought of it!

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            “Where were you last night?” I asked in the dimming light of my bedroom.  My downcast eyes were fixed on my bright red toenails, with the little black dots I had added earlier that morning to keep myself occupied.  Tears hugged my chin, as if wishing to be a part of my face for more than just a few seconds.  Minutes had passed, and yet the silence ensued on the other line.  I could barely hear his rugged breathing, struggling to survive and not be choked down.  He was nervous, I could tell, but I didn’t know why and I was desperate to find out.  I was frantic and I hopelessly wanted to be a part of his secret.

            “Justin?” I whispered softly into the speaker of the phone.  “Answer me.  Please.”  The silence continued.

            “I’m sorry.  So sorry,” he said under his breath, loud enough for only him to hear.  And then he hung up.

            The phone disconnected with a single click that was as ear shattering as it was heart breaking.  Tears poured down my puffy cheeks and off my face, like rain rolls off an umbrella during a downpour.  I can imagine that my once bright blue eyes turned a dangerous gray, resembling the summer’s day just a few hours earlier with no clouds which had suddenly become the evening storm that seemed to destroy.  With legs crossed, I sat on my bed clutching onto the powerful black phone in my hands and shaking uncontrollably with each new wave of emotions.  My heavy breathing turned ragged and coarse.  My hands trembled and my shoulders dropped as if giving up hope.  Slowly and without a sound I closed my eyes and slid under the pale blue covers of my bed, wishing that they would hide me beyond the normal sleeping hours of the night.  My mind swam deeper into confusion, and the tears continued to flow down my face, but I no longer shook as I fell into a dreamless sleep that could only occur from hours of frustration and crying.

            I jumped to a sudden alertness as I looked at the clock sitting on the table beside me and tried to read the red blur in my sluggish state.  2:07.  Perfect, I thought.  My heart broke last night and my alarm clock broke this morning.  Softly my head fell back to the comfort of the pillow, but sleep didn’t want to overtake my body.  Looking back at the clock and groaning, I threw off my covers and sat up on my bed.  Sleep.  That was all I wanted.  Well, that and the knowledge and understanding of what had happened the night before. 

            Pressing my palms to my eyes tightly so that the only light I was able to see was a bright green circle in the midst of total darkness, I tried to forget about the conversation.  But I couldn’t.  It wasn’t in my nature to forget, to pretend that things didn’t happen.  I scanned the bed quickly and found the black phone resting innocently beside the pillows.  Snatching it up in one fluid movement, my mind raced between options and emotions.  I looked back at the clock.  2:11.  Dropping the phone to the ground as new tears surfaced and traced the dried tears down my face, I sat in the silence of my bedroom not knowing what to do. 
It had taken three years to build up the relationship I had with Justin, and only three minutes for it to crumble.  But I didn’t want it to crumble, and I wasn’t going to let it end the way it did.  Stumbling in the darkness and barely being able to drag one foot behind the other, I grabbed my keys, threw on my jacket hastily and shoved my feet into the nearest pair of shoes I could find.  I walked down the stairs gently and shut the door with little more than a click and a twist of the keys. 

            Jacket trailing behind as the wind whipped through it, I ran to the red convertible I received that year for my eighteenth birthday.  Out of breath but fresh with new hope, I climbed inside and thanked the air when the engine roared on the first try.

            Driving as fast as I could while still trying to abide by the law since breaking the rules wasn’t a part of my nature and getting stopped by the police wasn’t on my list of things to do for the night, I came to an abrupt halt outside the brick house that belonged to Justin’s family.  My heart pounded as I scrambled to get out of the car and onto the porch, but as I threw rock after rock at the second window on the left with no response, I felt the hope leaving me and my heart slow down.

            Willing myself to not give up like I had done so many times before, I ran back to the car, slipping slightly on the thin layer of ice that covered the driveway, and slammed the car door shut behind me.  With anger and disappointment, I let out a scream of rage and confusion.  Glancing at the clock on my dashboard I noted that it was already 2:51 and that I had to be back home by 5:20 at the very latest if I didn’t want my parents sending out a search team for me.  I briefly closed my eyes and rested my head on the steering wheel, but within seconds threw it back up as my eyes became wide with thoughts and ideas.  I attempted to swiftly start up the engine again but this time luck deceived me.  Not wanting to waste time, I abandoned the car and decided to run to the park just a few blocks away.

            “Justin?” I whispered to the night.  Following the soft noises of a distant swing creaking as it goes back and forth; I carefully stepped towards the silhouette.

            “She died.” The darkness answered back.  The voice was dull, and practically lifeless, but I knew the owner and quietly sat down on the swing beside Justin.

            “Who died?”

            “She died, Hayley.  She just died.”

            “Justin, who died?  What’s going on?” I asked desperately.

            His voice echoed throughout the park as he screamed his response.  “Jessica.  Jessica died, Hayley.  You wanted to know where I was, right?  I was in the hospital, Hayley.  I was in the hospital holding my sister’s hand as I watched her die.”  His breathing was heavy and he had already jumped off the swing.  I sat there, not knowing what to say, but just looking at him.

            Silently, he began to shake and as he fell to his knees on the gravel in the playground, I got up and knelt down beside him.  I hugged him and stroked his hair, kissed his forehead and attempted to wipe away his tears.  It was the only form of consolation I could give him.  And he accepted it willingly.  Grabbing onto my jacket tightly, he sobbed and mumbled and all I could manage to do was hold him and take in his pain.  Together we sat on the ground until morning came and the children flooded the fields.  But we continued to sit, holding onto each other, and it was then that I realized that our relationship hadn’t crumbled; it was still building.     
 
 
Current Mood: tired
 
 
Chaotica
22 November 2007 @ 10:30 pm
For Writing class we have to write a short story of about 4-10 pages and then read it out loud.  I have to do mine for tomorrow and so far in the class there have been some pretty awesome stories and then some pretty ordinary ones.  I want mine to be... really fantastic.  I've always loved writing, but I've also always been shy about it and very... protective of it.  So if we have to write something and then share it, I want it to be one of my best works.  Or something along those lines.  Basically I'm just a little nervous.  I was thinking that once I'm done writing it I'll post it up for you guys to read.  Tell me what you think and all.  =D

Tomorrow after school Sheena is coming to visit us, so Sean, Neece, Maroushka, Sheena and I are probably going to head off to Metrotown and do some pre-Christmas shopping.   That ought to be fun.  And then we're going to watch Enchanted over at Strawberry Hills and Peter is probably going to join us!

Today is actually our 7 monthiversary, as we like to call it, just as I'm sure many other people also like to call it.  I haven't seen him all day and he's been so busy with school for the past week that I've barely gotten to talk to him either.  Also, this morning the football field was covered in frost and the sun was up, so I took a picture.  I'll see if I can upload it since it was a gorgeous sight.  Winter is so close that I can taste it.  I can taste the frost, the snow, the goodies that get baked and all the other goodness that comes along with the holidays.  Oh how I'm thrilled!

Anyway, so that's what's happening tomorrow and such.  Oh!  I called dibs on the kitchen on Saturday to bake some cookies!  I'm going to call them the Chocoholic Chips.  ;D  I'll take some pictures of those as well and if they turn out good, I'll post up the recipe! 
 
 
Current Location: my bedroom
Current Mood: cheerful
 
 
Chaotica
20 November 2007 @ 03:27 pm
I'm taking a break from history homework and am going to attempt making a stir fry for dinner tonight since my mum will be too tired to cook.  To be more specific... an instant noodle stir fry!  If all goes well, I'll be back with the recipe and pictures!

Mmm mmm good!  ;D


SO!  It actually turned out pretty spifftastic!  Pictures and recipe will be below the cut out of consideration for many people and also so that my journal still looks neat and tidy... mainly because I'm too lazy to resize and make them look all pretty.  ;]


Overall, it didn't turn out badly at all.  In fact, it was actually pretty good.  But it could have used a bit more flavour.  I'd make it again, but next time I think I'd add a bit more soy sauce, some more salt, and even a couple cloves of garlic.  I think that would kick it up a bit.  But yeah, it was definitely a good dinner.  Even Peter liked it!  =D  And it served about... 4-5 people?  Pretty good!
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Current Location: my bedroom
Current Mood: excited
 
 
Chaotica
19 November 2007 @ 02:56 pm
I freaking hate this time of the month.  Hate it.  All I want to do is sleep so that the pain will go away but I can't fall asleep.  Argh. 

Die fertileness, die.

So anyway, can't wait till Christmas.  I love the holidays.  I love shopping for people and the good feelings that constantly go around, even with the really crappy people.  It's contagious.  So it's great!  Yeah, come on over Christmas time.  I'm looking forward to reuniting with you once again. ;]
 
 
Current Mood: creative
 
 
 
 

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